Last night I went to a good friends birthday party
Although in truth my conscience didn’t want to go
I knew I would drink and smoke to maximum excess
But I felt it would be rude of me if I didn’t show
So I put my tentative raw feelings to one side
Showed up to party with a smile on my face
All the while hating myself for being pathetically weak
For abandoning my aspirations of living in grace
For the past two weeks the evening was planned
Everyone had to bring a CD of their favourite tunes
So we could hear and enjoy each others music tastes
Sing along to the ninety-nine red balloons
Through circumstance I had to take my laptop
So it was down to me to load their choices
The sound levels varied on each track, so I had to DJ
Instead of gratitude all I got was dissenting voices
Ok, so I did play a large percentage of my tracks
Maybe I should have just played their ones instead
But when I played Nightwish or Linkin Park
They went down like a red balloon made of lead
I was also criticised for people not dancing
But I am the one who usually gets the party going
I was too caught up in trying to choose the next song
The beer and vodka at the bar were flowing
Now up to this point I hadn’t done much to regret
I had even made some new friends talking the shit
Then I saw people smoking the dreaded devil’s weed
I knew I wouldn’t be satisfied until I got a hit
Even though through years of past experience
It has done me little or no good whatsoever
I still insisted in getting totally out of my brain
I now swear that that was the last time for forever
It was like I had a total arsehole enter my body
I became full of myself and acted like a total dick
When someone had the gall to play one of their tunes
I assaulted them with a passionate verbal brick
I then said a few other things that didn’t make me proud
They were not nasty or mean maybe just unthoughtful
Why did I give my self-respect a chance to recede?
My actions were at least a little bit disgraceful
I think to tear your aura open with drink and drugs
Is not the wisest thing to be doing at this time
So I am going to officially put down the old me
Allow the world to see me in my newfound prime
Then I will not wake up in the morning remorseful
From acting like a drunken prick full of self-importance
I won’t have wasted half my day in bed hungover
Against my old demons I will have made a stance
You have to lead by example if you want to be healed
There is no point preaching Jesus if you act like Satan
That has been the method of the evil Catholic Church
I do not want to be compared to that priestly charlatan
Cheers!
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